Permanence

35 years of solitude
35 years of dis-affected posturing
So much time and energy
To create a translucent covering
Of supposed indifference
What a waste of time
No satisfaction
Not even casual gratification
Just an ever expanding void
Each thought
Each motion
Only feeding absence
Not abstinence or denial
Complete negation of any
Meaningful contact with the
Worlds that surround
A study in prolonged abeyance
Everyone
Everything
Set aside
To make room for nothingness
A lifetime spent avoiding
Regenerative relations
People and situations
Indulged in for their lack of
Any response that might
Generate or sustain
Growth or change
One way mirror
Blank stare binding
Illusory
Inconsequential schemes
This mono-cellular world is
Really as empty
As it seems